is NEVER done...
from a dear friends message, I quote "my little man is finally asleep. Thank god for the lullaby of the rain tonight. All you moms out there know what I mean when I say this, I wish I could absorb all the things that affect my kids in a negative way.... The colds, the boo boos, the fears, stress and pain. Just take it all on my shoulders and let them live a perfectly beautiful life"
this is also in the past week, this one while at work, in he middle of screaming at someone "are you stabbed or shot sir" what is your emergency? I hear a subtle "are you o.k. baby, what is wrong? I know, mama will see you in the morning...You want to go buy a surprise after I come get you? o.k. love you too, sweet dreams, o.k. good night, mama loves you more"
and with that, the phone call was done, hats switched as it does SO MANY times during a day/night!!
you raise your children with the intention of being there for them always, being there for every little up/down, high/low and literally everything in between. you raise your children with the notion that someday "you will understand" why I do this, why I tell you this, why it has to be this way....I will NEVER forget when my oldest came home from 3rd grade absolutely devastated, she was crying, in so much disbelief that her one little best friend told her she did not want to be friends any more. She balled for hours, I could not comfort her it was so bad. as a mother it was one of the toughest things I have ever had to endure to this point, I had no experience, this was my oldest daughter. I wanted to RIP the hurt right out of her, I wanted to immediately call the other mom and tell her to scold her daughter for being mean to my little girl, it was so intense, I hurt right along with her, it was a deep, hoarse hurt that left your heart heavy and your chest heavier. I had to explain to her that there was nothing wrong with her and that this little girl was the one who was going to have to earn 'your' friendship back and that she did nothing wrong. the innocence of the child was "but I still want to be her friend right now mommy" *sigh*
as much as you want to take it ALL away and protect them from all that this evil world has to offer, you simple can't. your job is to protect them, guide them, be there to wipe their skinned knees, their tears, be there to tell them 'it WILL be ok', be there to listen and to give them advice {they won't know that they will need till much later in life} and through it all, the trials & triumphs, the broken & mended hearts, the scabs & stitches I can say all the joys of parenthood will come around two-fold -- your children WILL live a beautiful life and it will be because of you!!
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